Ashley Judd recalls holding mother Naomi as she died, asks for privacy

Ashley Judd is opening up about discovering her mother Naomi after her suicide in April.

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Judd, 54, described “the most shattering day of [her] life” in a personal essay in the New York Times, recalling finding her mother still alive and holding her.

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“The trauma of discovering and then holding her laboring body haunts my nights,” Judd wrote.

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While all Judd wanted to do was comfort her mom, law enforcement officers began interviewing her

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They kept her away from Naomi during the last moments of her life

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She felt “cornered and powerless.”

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“I wanted to be comforting her, telling her how she was about to see her daddy and younger brother as she ‘went away home,’ as we say in Appalachia,” Judd said.

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